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ADVENTURES IN PHARISEEISM…had I only foreknown

FIRST THE VICTOR’S CROWN BACK

STORY…FOLLOWED BY THE SONG…

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NOTE: I mention my first ever rude encounter with LP Pharisee “Jumping in Public” though barely, Please note, that I will give much more in depth detail to this FIRST horrid out in public sinister deep south aggression, as well as 3 more..But on a separate article,clearing it all out to then hopefully NEVER have to again recall it. BUT to let it serve similar slandered, biased against persons that they are not alone, but to also let the normal, safe, mature Christian Body UNDERSTAND what goes on under the Good Holy Name of mature, calm, loving “James 3:17 mature calm “ever pure, peaceable EASILY ENTREATED character” is besieged by accuser demonic hornets, the aggressive, pursuant,and all others business minding, evil and every HARMFUL and demonically powerful religious spirit…AND WHY?? For simply for wanting to submit to Hebrews 10:25 “Fellowship with the Saints”…ONLY BECAUSE THEY REALLY DO LOVE THE LORD and attending church.”

PLANO AWARD..Very frankly, I cracked up when I was notified about the perceived above AWARD. I had done nothing deserving. And it simply makes focusing FULLY UPON THE LASTING LIVING LORD all the more needed. I shared it due to irony and for giving God any glory ..due to HIS great (much needed) Grace. For my esteem ought not come from ministry accolades, victories, losses, other’s words and/or possessions, assessed numbers, for when we all appear ALL BY OURSELVES before The Throne, HE will be the ONLY thing, the ONLY PERSON who truly matters.

ABOVE YE MUST BE BORN AGAIN deep grass roots, many TV, WE afflicted.. are currently our very own plus potentially the Most High God’s ongoing VERY WORST accuser, rivalrous, very very shallow nightmare

Now I share the VICTOR’S CROWN background.

 

ANCIENT BACK STORY: VERY FIRST PHARISEE YEAST ..BACK IN THE (DEEP SOUTH) EAST

late 90’s

 

WITH THE BIRTH AND GROWTH OF CHRISTIAN TV, EVENTUAL CELEBRITY PASTORS, RENOWN TEACHERS, BISHOPS, VIEWING BIG GRASS ROOTS, RURAL, BIG CITY. COUNTRY, URBAN.ALL SIZES AND STYLES OF (SUPPOSEDLY) “GENUINE” BORN AGAIN MINISTERS SOON BEGAN TO FOLLOW THE FAMOUS MEN AND WOMEN PASTORS AS GOD’S WAY,THE TRUTH AND THE REAL MINISTRY LIFE..And the TV Viewing “HOLY SPIRIT FILLED” “GOD CALLED” starting to be dysfunctional, deep grass roots were sitting there, taking big notes and emulating.

I need to say,about this song. I was in regional servant leader ministries, had my own (then The Encouraging Word, which was a newsletter to pastors and an ongoing intercessory area group and taught the Bible. By the time this song was written, I had been in ministry for over a decade with myself as the head founder, and without any demonic,devilish incidents, However, as TV and parts of the Celebrity Christian,and the wannabe clear now dear untrue doctrines began to spread akin to the Bible Pharisee big yeast…even while I had always been invited to area senior pastors, ministry founders, cross body of Christ, racial healing, repentance for revival ongoing prayer, and enjoyed much favor with God’s men and leader women, (which were few)..

 

SO It was after the Changing of the Area Main Prayer Guard to this NEW ongoing senior authority “need to be viewed as OVER all area charismatic ministers, that as a raised by the NON “covering, NON suspicious witch watching and having not EVER been around any elite ministry or “overseer shepherding” as a raised “free” Not Back Under the Elite Law BAPTIST, with decades of senior apostolic ministry under my spiritual belt.and with a area ministry, primarily to MEN,I was far off “SEEN ” riding in my family car with a MALE HOUSE GUEST whom I had adopted like a brother, (as I had none, no father, no male family member to ask to help) *PLUS NOTE: I was very selective and extremely CAREFUL choosing this particular adopted like a Brother and first insured that neither HE  (for I bluntly ASKED him) nor I felt any possible CHEMISTRY.. for I back then was was …and to this day am still continuing … VERY carefull)

I had felt that i needed a relative like person, as to confide in, as board, accountability persons were all remote, did not appear to grasp the double life I was living and how deeply it cost me to remain faithfull and committed to saving the long marriage..And I would ask for tips about how to handle the hellish growing closet recurring abuse..for he had been raised similarly . And I nor anyone in my family had ever been raised abused or mistreated…and during that period of time, I was living with it almost every day..and felt completely voiceless and overpowered due to control, violent aggressive mental and emotional, verbal heightened about…As well as horrifically wearing, depleting hardened,deeply dominating Silent Treatment.

(WHICH I ongoing BIG FORGAVE, however, that type of deep long term recurring abuse leaves PTSD which I allowed GOD the show how HE wanted to heal me.(Great Simple Tips for another time) yet it, and the MOVE to a very active, progressive but non too genuine in Ministry…proved to add to what turned out to be SHARP wide area pioneering learning big curve ..which took took 12 plus more years to get fully healed of) BUT GOD DID IT! Read Psalm 143 the first half.And that how I was living. BACK PRIOR TO the last few solitary but CALM, PEACEFUL and CONTENTED deep area south ministry years.

 

HOWEVER “seen and accuser judged” for “RIDING IN THE CAR with the male houseguest” (ATTENTION TO All far off Pharisees..”let not YOUR GOD be evil spoken of!!”) soon after I was given big evidence that it strongly appeared that I was ACCUSED of Carrying ON because I was riding around with the MALE who was not my businessman husband yet HE knew that I was doing so.

THIS ASIDE…A NATIONAL LOCAL REAL LESSON: “MY ADVICE..if YOU see something that YOU feel is worth ACCUSING as “SHE, HE,THEY ARE CLEARLY COMMITTING SIN”..then to make SURE you are RIGHT..before YOU tale bear, gossip about..then the GOD BURDEN is on YOU to find OUT…So..YOU need to call them up and ASK FACE TO FACE!! AND I am and have always been 100% open to RESPECTFUL one to one Bible Matthew 18;15-17, humble Galatians 6:1 …NOTE AND ALSO I practice that RELATIONSHIP MATURE RESPECT “upfront healthy calm confront” myself!! **
**(so I did that with the one below, I phoned him, made an Christian to Christian fellow minister appointment, to CONFRONT him, as he was CLUELESS. Yet when I arrived at his office he was like a stone Pharisee Autocrat Big Bully COLD hearted wall. I remember him sitting their frowning like a GOD ON THE JUDGEMENT THRONE…wearing the most awful huge Religious Scowling Pharisee self righteous big FROWN..looking like he was ready to stone the Harlot …a Ministry leader Hester Prynne (Hmm. Resembled NT Rock Throwing Pharisees: The Scarlet “A” Letter, Salem Witch trials makes one recall) SO, as I was prior to doing this nearly fully drained by the abuse AND all this needless senseless DRAMA…so to save my health, I silently left… for HIS MIND was SO HARD and OVERSEER MENTALLY ACCUSER TOUGH that I could see it was pointless. He KNEW what HE wanted to BELIEVE and was not interested in the TRUTH…PS believe me, it was awful and DRAINING)

However, even while I had a hugely clean, pure area reputation among all the praying senior ministers, I was “SPIED” but never confronted by the New Breed of “THEY DESERVE, NEED TO BE “OVER” ME” brand of witch watching, forever seeing Undermining persons,and ones who were accuser legalists, but widely read..for one of them had stumbled upon a book C. Peter Wagner (when this happened I did not understand that I was in the midst of WELP Pharisees.. but now, in hindsight I understand that happened to be in a WELP meeting when the aristocrat small church “overseer chief apostle” read for this white WELP by book..or else I might have never KNOWN..*PS Note all that was a horrid nightmare and so I never read the book for myself, just heard it quoted, and I am not accusing C. Peter Wagner for I understand how many people TWIST things to their own advantage. And as he had a pure reputation, I never want to smear his clean pure ministry name,.

However, the LOCAL PHARISEES presumed that that small white elite bunch ..where THE CHIEF APOSTLES OVER THE GATES OF THE AREA and formed an elite Patriarchal clearly Autocratic Elite Band of WELP BROTHERS who took Brother Wagner’s teaching that “God puts certain apostles OVER the gates of the city to be OVER the rest of the ministers plus to keep order keep watch out.” to mean THEMSELVES.So I and very many pure hearted, quiet and abiding James 3:17, Ephesians 5:21 Ephesians 4 similar OTHERS (I was able to count 32 females, 1 gentle husband of 7) . began to be intrusively MONITORED, kept overseer Big I’s WATCH OVER (even though I has independent and NOT “a member or a family member”) and had a businessman big husband, and 3-5 area senior pastors to whom I was accountable.

 

REAL LP LESSON…THEY ALL WANT TO BE KNOWN AS OVER EVERY OTHER..BUT DON’T YIELD TO RESPECT OR VALUE AREA RELATIONSHIPS FOR THEY CLEVERLY ONGOING OMIT RELATIONSHIP RESPECTING NON ELITE VERSE (Ephesians 4, Ephesians5:21, abiding James 3:17, Upfront confrontation Matthew 18;15-17, humble Galatians 6:1 etc)

Still it was all of THEM who did not want to take time to know and after noting that I was SENT (Holy Spirit part of my cross body ministry directions) I was afar offs seen in their new accuser law ministry vocabulary “CHURCH HOPPING “‘NOT UNDER A VISIBLE ELEVATED AREA, OR TV PASTOR” and therefore (this according to Overseer Shepherding NEW LOCAL INFILTRATION…the apart ONLY A SHE was accused and ASSUMED to be perpetually committing the newly imported view of (LP Pharisee) SIN.. of “NOT (viewed from afar off) AS UNDER PROPER AUTHORITY” and as a much younger senior ministry, far less ministry secure,never slouched from anyone up front confronting, and I also confronted RATHER than believing a wicked fellow minister report and avoided all local gossip,rumors.

 

FOR in minister major hindsight, as I had been WELL RAISED, not one bit raw, and also raised by persuasive, respecting non legalistic full parental authority who were NOT Critical Levitical Zero Fun senior pastors, ALSO around many family true Christians each of whom had a ministry…and yet who were NOT legalists OR Pharisees and who NEVER ONCE minded anyone’s business…IN HINDSIGHT…For God had granted this sincerely person GREAT GRACE to have been reared soundly and happily by free non legalistic, NON NOSY SMOTHERING BIG I COVERING Southern NON WELP , not RACIST nontraditional Baptists.

BEEN JUMPED FOR WALKING FOR CHRIST

ALSO, as a Cross Christian Body Servant Pioneering Leader Type of minister I a budding apostolic seer,sent to mostly MEN and to ALL RACES ..not just WHITE..I was called over,,so I left my friend who eye witnessed from afar.. and outnumbered by 2-3 WELP who proceeded to loudly, publicly BERATE the lone me. for “being out from under authority and in rebellion” (A WOW) …which in blind hindsight I now name (no holy fear of the Loving Lord), ACCUSER JUMPED “Taveau Lexicon BERATE WITHOUT RELATE) And all of this was out in a public March of Jesus (a day following huge depleting and numbing abuse) and without ANY prior attempt to phone me,to politely RESPECT ME as a fellow front lines minister, a born again Christian as in ZERO attempt to Matthew 18:15-17, much less HUMBLE emotionally mature Galatians 6:1…and was forever after rumored about under siege by area Pharisees, while at the same time undergoing recurring deep emotional abuse, demonic seeming endless up close demeaning accusation in my home.

 

As a emotionally mature, seasoned and well raised (cherished, highly respected) senior pastor’s dear first born daughter, who had never once encountered anything like this it made it very very hard to raise the children and also be area somewhat known, on radio, media and also give 25-38 piano lessons each and every week.

THE SINCERE OPPOSITE

NOTE THE CALM, ORDERLY OTHER LIFE I LED AT THE EXACT SAME SPECIFIC TIME…Dr John E Jones was an ACCOUNTABILITY deeply intelligent but NON WELP, in fact a very dark skinned AFRICAN AMERICAN and deeply respectful multi doctorate earned degreed close family friend PASTOR. (what a stark Christian Minister contrast)

FINALLY, ABOUT “THE VICTOR’S CROWN” ..This song was downloaded (given) by the Lord in honor of one my fellow blessed prophetic friends, peers, now late board member, Dr. John E Johns, Keisha Ministries, Richmond, VA. He embodied true servant elder leadership, was from the African American heritage, without a racist or privileged, Pharisee or proud, ministry competitive ego. Everything about the very well versed, non self important him…was authentic, humble, quiet Big Intelligence..and a true big gentleman..

 

I used to laugh recalling what a deep contrast the Dr Jones I got to know with the one that prior existed to our knowing one another: Sharing Examples… Dr John / Sr Pastor Jones, had 4 earned doctorates…He had been the following: a seeming sought out, traveling little boy preacher, a Black Panther Imam,worked for Jimmy Carter’s campaign and developed one of the gifts that the campaign handed out nationally (a gold peanut on a chain I believe)…Plus he owned at least a couple of co-ops in Atlanta. Also he had been an unsaved Baptist preacher who preached on Sundays but sinned on Sunday night.

( I suppose that I’m simply very comfortable around HONEST right or left, perhaps an inner RADICAL dwells deeply yet kinda demurely, on the inside, mainly a perceptive grass roots organizer…one who’s NOT big afraid of the NON TRADITIONAL and/or UNTAMED..Note: if they have a pure heart and a pure lifestyle, no hidden agenda)

Dr. John, who could be very intense, but NEVER into controlling….eventually got radically SAVED when his 5 month old infant child scratched his cornea and he suffered a brain aneurysm and lost his 4 earned doctorates and became completely paralyzed, a human vegetable at Medical College of VA in Richmond.

Soon, his wife left him... and all of his friends stopped going to see him as he lay in the hospital. AND one amazing day Dr John got SAVED…. when JESUS one day triggered in his mind the Bible passage about the supernatural miracle HEALING of the PARALYTIC.

 

After 5 long lonely, dreary months, John E Jones felt the Holy Ghost power supernaturally quicken his body. He managed to roll off the bed, but when he hit the ground, God’s supernatural power fell all over him. Then he scooched himself over to the wall, managed to inch up, then rose up fully HEALED and could walk.

 

And when Brother John, who had been close to a vegetable, lying in bed 4-5 solid months, walked out of his room, to the nurses station… to inform the nurses and doctors of his healing..John said that many of them SCREAMED in SHOCK….

However, right a first, Dr John could not remember his education…thus he could not add even a few numbers…. HOWEVER Later his 4 degrees all came back…I SURE WISH he was alive today to share personally! GENTLE SPIRIT of servant Leadership, Mighty Dr John E Jones.

Later, after I knew him, he had much kidney trouble, had to be on dialysis. Following my relocation to DFW, he came out here to meet with me and another prophetic board member, but then after he returned back home, eventually he dropped out of all ability to contact. Thus I suppose he passed, perhaps from kidney failure.

However, during this same time of apostolic pioneering servant ministry, as when God gave me THE VICTOR’S CROWN.. I observed, plus started to be repeatedly attacked by, (very much overseer accuser far off spiritual area warfare…) was the very opposite by area upcoming traditions of all wise men, and the controlling, Minding Every Other Minister’s, Rising Ministers, business apostolic shepherding, now I name(2012-2013) Old Testament WELP (Western European Levitical Patriarchism) which as a prior (raised) emotionally mature Southern Baptist,I had never ever known such things existed in Born Again Christian ministry, elders, lay. Back area then was when the Lord began to point out the start of what is now the GREAT local church “apostasy” which has mushroomed since.

 

It and the ministry accusation, fear of losing big control as well as the many character assassinations, (paved the way for the 2 Timothy 3:1-5 From Such Turn Away FF (Friendly Fire) false authority ministry Fellowship.

 

ALSO I believe that is WHY I began to study BIBLE DOCTRINES, and “Bible true and false governmental authority” which I now can much more fully address, want to address.

And Christian mature honor, humility and non competitive, non controlling Unity, without big control, genuflecting, Big I’s and Little Peon YOU’S, without all accusation, bigotry and minister, personal achievement taking first priority over ALL RELATIONSHIPS…

THE VICTOR’S CROWN

(PLEASE BEAR WITH this very old non professional recording, but at least you can get the gist ..really ought to be far slower and more contemplative, but due to keyboard loss…we at least have this very old hand hewn demo)

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SLOWER INSTRUMENTAL VERSION:

JEREMIAH 3:15 “Then I will give you shepherds after My own heart, who will feed you on knowledge and understanding.

JEREMIAH 23:4 “I will also raise up shepherds over them and they will tend them; and they will not be afraid any longer, nor be terrified, nor will any be missing,” declares the LORD”

THE VICTOR’S CROWN A Ministry Leader Anthem

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THE VICTOR’S CROWN

1. We’ll have only crowns of glory to lay down at Your feet
Not false crowns of position or of pride
Lord, bring us out of sin and give us strength to look within
Bring us out of darkness into light.

2. Lord, bring us to our knees that we may walk in victory
Over hatred, division and strife
We’ll lay down our lives for Truth because we hunger for You
Not the approval of man.

REFRAIN

My one desire is to run the race complete
A victor’s crown to lay down at Your feet
I give my heart and my mind and life to You
O Father God, I want nothing more than You

3. Forgive us for the dead works
For the things we haven’t done
Lord, take the scales off our eyes
Let us know You and what You would have us do
Deliver us from all of satan’s lies

4. Father, forgive us for we know not what we do
For our arrogance, our failure and our fear
Come and rend out hearts and restore the missing parts
With true, mercy, compassion and Holy Fear.

REFRAIN:

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